TODAY IS YOUR DAY

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I have to keep reading this. Anyone who has put forth the effort to lose a substantial amount of weight knows that it can be a mental struggle. In the beginning I lost 5 pounds in one week and now I am lucky if I lose 1 pound. I am in this for the long haul but the scale COULD reward my hard effort. 



OK! So obviously I have made a huge difference in my body over the last four months. 

I started on March 1st and I looked like this 


I was done being uncomfortable and I was not prepared for my daughter to see me unhealthy 
In four months I have lost almost 40 pounds 


And now this was me yesterday on July 1st

So I am 1/3 of the way through my year. I decided I wanted to give myself a full year of commitment. So I am only 1/3 of the way there. I can do this. I don't have a desire to quit I just question why I haven't lost 100 pounds yet hahaha I KNOW it's ridiculous but it can get discouraging. For now I will tell myself all this weight training I am doing is giving me AWESOME muscles and thats why the number on the scale hasn't moved a lot in the last week. 

As you know I am doing Whole30 and part of the process is you're not supposed to weigh. I think I might have an unhealthy addiction to weighing myself. I weight like three times a day to see if anything is happening and it always feels like this 



I have to remember there is a reason they say to stay off the scale. It can be a huge motivation when you log that you have lost another 5 pounds, but it can also mess you up mentally when you don't see a budge in the scale and yet you have been eating super healthy and have gone to the gym seven days in a row. 




So what is the goal? To be healthy. How do I achieve that goal? By doing exactly what I have been doing everyday and not giving up. Some weeks maybe my body will respond differently as far as my weight is concerned but I know what I am doing is getting me there slowly. At some point the number will drop again. I have ups and downs but everyday I am going to make the decision to keep pushing forward. 



And maybe today is my day to hide my scale and stop focusing on that aspect of this journey. 











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