Crossfit and a sex doll.

I have been working out pretty consistently and have been weightlifting for a while, but I decided that I wanted to do something more. I have been thinking about trying CrossFit but I am scared to do it alone. I mentioned the idea to my husband and he said he was interested in trying it too. I am really interested in lifting heavy and getting more physical strength. 

I am really proud that I have lost over 100 pounds, but I will say my body isn't exactly how I imagined it would be. I pretty much feel like this... 

It's weird how your body just kind of deflates. My skin is weird. I am not really comfortable with my arms or thighs - hello short and tank top season. I also hoped my stomach would go away and while it is smaller it's just a smaller deflated version of what it was. I was morbidly obese and had a child. My stomach will probably never be viewed by anyone and that is fine, but when you look at this as motivation 

and then you get to this point and realize you're never actually going to look like this it can be hard. I could get skin removal surgery and all that, but it's a vanity procedure and not really necessary. So what do I REALLY want from this picture above? To be a fitness model? No! I want to be strong and confident. I read an article where a woman talked about how she had lost over 100 pounds and was strong and capable even though her body was "ugly". It made me realize that I don't need to focus on how I look. I started my journey to set an example for my daughter. To be more healthy and fit so that she would see that as a normal way of living. At my weight there were limitations to things I could do with her and I never want to feel like my body is holding me back from being the best mom I can be. 

I also don't want to teach my beautiful daughter that the focus of being healthy and active is about vanity. 

****Read that inspiring article "I LOVE MY UGLY BODY" 

My most recent Whole30 meals: 

Shrimp Fried "Rice" 

You can buy cauliflower crumbles, but putting cauliflower in the food processor is not only cheaper but it's more of a fine rice texture than the big crumbled you can buy. 

This fried "rice" is so easy because I use one pot! 

Cook three slices diced whole30 compliant bacon and set aside. 

Add one chopped onion and about 4 chopped carrots and sauté. 

Add your cauliflower, then add coconut aminos, fish sauce, and a little black pepper. Cook until cauliflower is tender. 

Add the shrimp and cook until pink, add in three scrambled eggs, sliced green onion, and the crispy bacon. It's AMAZING.

Curry tuna salad and celery sticks. 

Mashed sweet potato with the coconut jalapeño meatballs (recipe in previous post) and avocado. 

Drug emporium now has Epic Fats and Broth! I was so excited I had to try it. I also picked up some Farmhouse Culture kraut and applegate hot dogs. 

Pistachio crusted salmon is amazing. I basted the salmon with a little bit of brown mustard then just pushed the crushed pistachios into the mustard and baked. 

This sauerkraut is AMAZING. I highly recommend it. 

Pineapple Chicken Stir Fry 

This was so easy and so good. I tossed chicken thighs, fresh pineapple chunks, and stir fry veggies into the crock pot with whole30 compliant ketchup, coconut aminos, and fish sauce. I added a second bag of veggies about 1 1/2 hours before dinner so all the veggies weren't too soft. 

I served it with toasted almonds.