Finding Johanna

I have not weighed in several weeks. I decided to focus more on habits rather than a number on the scale. BUT I think that may have been a mistake because I feel like I have gained weight. I have also been out of the gym for a few weeks because of illness and being busy. I did yoga and zumba a couple of times, but I feel like I am not working hard enough.  I know that this is a long journey and lately that long road ahead of me has made me lose sight of goals. I am being ridiculous but thats ok because talking through this helps.  These are things that I must stop saying...  JUST REST TODAY ITS OK NOT TO WORK OUT: this does not help me. If I have a legit reason not to work out then thats one thing but sometimes its more just I don't want to. I was working out 5 days a week and now I am lucky to get in 3... EMBARRASSED  ITS OK TO EAT MORE BECAUSE ITS HEALTHY: my portions are getting bigger lately... I need to start focusing on eating slow and thinking abou...

I used to be very obsessed with clothes and shoes - until it wasn't as fun to shop for these things.  I stopped loving the shopping when I never felt cute in anything I tried on OR the only clothes that were really cute in my size were just too expensive. (Which they still are... but thanks to Gwynnie Bee I kind of worked around that a bit. See the end of this post for more on that topic!)  For the last several years I have been a yoga pants t-shirt loving fool- which is comfortable and great. I will never give up on my comfy style BUT ... Since losing 56 pounds I think its important to tap back into my fashion sense and actually try to look presentable in public again.  Yesterday my husband and I went to Longview and while there I made him go with me to TJ Max, Payless, and Target  Lately I have been obsessed with leopard print, rose gold, and boots! (Also purses but I couldn't find a purse I loved that was under $100)  ...

Lets start this post with a confession...  Those of you who follow me on facebook already know this but last night GASP I had alcohol!  I had to do it. If you are a teacher you know what I mean.  Yes its true yesterday was extremely stressful!  I won't go into the details but I had several things yesterday that made me seriously question my job.  Those kind of moments probably should not lead to "Maybe I should have a drink!" but they did... I started with plan A which was to go for a long walk with my husband. That helped a little but it wasn't enough. The beer he ran and got for me WAS.  So yes I cheated on my goal of no alcohol and it wasn't a bachelorette party or wedding it was just a regular old Friday night at home with my husband. I don't really regret this decision because it did help me relax and let go of the stuff that happened at work.  FAST FORWARD TO THIS MORNING  I woke up and it was GORGEOUS ou...

I didn't talk about Yoga last night.  I had a hard day at work yesterday. I felt sick still and almost thought I was going to have to get someone to watch my class while I ran to the restroom sick. Thankfully I just controlled my breathing and drank some water and it helped a bit.  At the end of work I had such a horrible headache and I was real dizzy feeling.  I came home and laid in the hammock with my puppies and was content to not go to Yoga but just lay at home and relax. When Chris came home he told me to drink a big glass of water and that maybe I was just dehydrated and that water would help me get some energy back.  He was actually right. I drank some water rested a little more than headed to Yoga.  It was actually harder than the last time for some reason. Yoga is very relaxing and the last 10 minutes where you lay on your back with the essential oil towel in silence is the best part haha BUT during the routines it takes a LOT of arm str...

I feel like I solved my food addiction issues by not getting rid of it but adjusting the addiction to fit my needs. I am currently addicted to finding as many healthy recipes for things I love as possible. I love bold flavors and I am not picky at all. There are really only two things I don't eat: raw tomatoes and cucumbers. I love all proteins and fruits and I am very adventurous when it comes to flavors and trying new weird things. Nothing in this post is weird or adventurous just simple and good. These recipes work for people who don't have a ton of time. Speaking of not using 1-2 hours making a delicious healthy meal a huge tip I have is to PLAN AHEAD. Here is my handy Martha Stewart weekly planner decal that stays on my fridge to plan the weeks meals. Planning and sticking to the menu helps me prep and helps me not to over eat or wait til I am starving because I plan and food is ready and I know what I am going to eat - no more no less.  My other tip for suc...