Finding Johanna

MEASUREMENTS on JULY 31st -                 two months ago CHEST - 46  BUST- 49  WAIST- 44  ABDOMEN- 44  HIPS- 52  BUTTOCKS- 53  THIGHS- 29  KNEE- 18  CALF- 19  ANKLE- 10  UPPER ARM- 18  FOREARM- 11 1/2 MEASUREMENTS TODAY  Chest -42 THATS 4 INCHES DOWN BUST- 45 AGAIN 4 INCHES WAIST- 41 3 INCHES DOWN ABDOMEN - 42 2 INCHES DOWN HIPS- 49 3 INCHES DOWN BUTTOCKS- 50 3 INCHES DOWN THIGHS- 27 2 INCHES DOWN KNEE - 17 1/2 1/2 INCH DOWN CALF- 18 1 INCH DOWN ANKLE- 10 SAME UPPER ARM- 16 2 INCHES DOWN FOREARM- 11 1/2 INCH DOWN THAT IS 25 TOTAL INCHES I HAVE LOST FROM MY BODY!!!!!!!

I can't believe it but I am actually BEYOND thrilled that I get to finally go back to the gym tomorrow!  YAAAY  I have felt so huge this last week. I felt like I gained 80 pounds.  Today I had people tell me "you are looking so good" and inside I thought "Yeah right don't lie bitch I know I look like I haven't lost any weight..."  BRAIN WHY ARE YOU SO NEGATIVE?  I wonder if I think being mean to myself will make me work harder ... probably not so I should stop the negative thoughts.  I heard a wonderful song that really spoke to me and it made me realize what is important.  I am not doing this for vanity reasons I am doing it to be healthy. Somehow this past week I have been focusing more on losing weight and thinking of it as a diet instead of my lifestyle change maybe because I have had to go to events and I hadn't had to do that yet. The first two months I didn't have any social events or activities where I co...

My husband thinks I am crazy.  Me : "I feel fat... have I gained weight? Do I look fatter?"  Husband: "uh... you're crazy"  But come on what husband would ever say "Yes you look fatter..."  An ex husband... or better yet a dead one.  Yeah call me fat... I dare you I can't wait for Monday when I can get back to the gym. And TUESDAY is my Yoga night very excited about that too. This past week I have been making sure to eat delicious and healthy foods in good portions. Eat a healthy breakfast take my multi-vitamin, pack a healthy lunch, and eat a healthy snack once home and then a healthy dinner with a good portion size.   I didn't take photos of everything I made this week but I will give recipes for a few of my favorites.  BREAKFAST: Chocolate Peanut Butter Chia Oats - they taste just like those no bake oatmeal cookies but sugar free and better for you! Oats, cocoa, pinch of salt, splenda or other no calorie swee...

Ok ... this past week I have felt seriously shitty about myself and my weight loss goals. I was supposed to be positive but its hard when I can't go to the gym because of my back and to boot after a long weekend of alcohol and fatty food. I am uncomfortable in my body again and I feel like I have gained weight especially after the whole change in scales weight that was 10 pounds higher.  I HATE LIFE My husband says I need to wait a few more days to go to the gym. I am going to start Yoga on Tuesday and I am SUPER excited. I will also be extra good and work out and go to the sauna in Mexico. I haven't back tracked really I just feel like I have. I need to get to the gym ASAP! I have been doing great food wise I think its just that I feel fat when I don't work out. I feel like I am bloated and need to sweat this out. My fat needs a good cry!  As I have said before this is a journey for the rest of my life so I have no need to feel like I am on a time line here bu...

Yesterday when I left the doctor I was not feeling good. The one thing I always crave when I don't feel good is noodle soup! I made my own homemade because canned soups can be high in sodium.  I used one carton of low sodium 99% fat free Swanson chicken broth  Carrots, Celery, onion, turkey breast, and whole wheat heart healthy egg noodles  It made a TON so I will be eating on that all week! Later I was hungry for a sweet snack so I consulted a favorite recipe blog Undressed Skeleton and made flax seed banan crackers. TWO ingredients. 1/2 cup whole flax seeds and one mashed banana.  Spoon a small amount into the bottom of a muffin tin and bake at 350 until firm   Yes they were SOOO good. It made 12 crackers but I only could eat four - they are filling so they will be snacks for several days.  That is one of the things I love about healthy food it really makes you full. When I was eating those sta...